Goodbye my Angel....

Has been ages since i updated my blog. It has been a eventful year for me. I had moved house,I had stop working to become full time home maker... and last of all I lost a new angel.

The pregnancy caught me by surprise and sadly my wonderful surprise was so shortlived...it just came to an end. I had been sick since i was pregnant, cough, flu and hives. The doctor cannot detect any heartbeat and confirmed the lost 2 weeks later after detailed scan. My world was so shattered. Initially the pregnancy filled me with fear and uncertainty... then the joy of new life falls in... the anticipation and started looking forward to my 3 angels playing together. And maybe, the new angel would be a girl! Too many boys at home and would be nice to have a little gal. My hubby would love tat. Then, world came to a halt.... WHY ME??? did i eat something wrong or wat???? Am i too old??? Tons of question crosses my mind....

My case is blighted ovum.. read in the internet and realised I am not alone, a friend of mine had the same case last year too. I choose to let the body expel the water sac and whatever that is left in the womb out instead of ERPC. Thank you my lost angel, everything came out smoothly on 31 Aug 2009 after 3-4 hours of contraction. Kind of relieved but also sad that it wipe out any kind of small miricle I am wishing for.

Thanks the moral support from hubby who himself is upset too. He had make me feel so much better. Maybe is just not fated that for my little angel to come to our family. Still nursing my wounded heart... and wherever u are my angel, thank you for stopping for a brief moment of your time in our life. You have make me realised how precious life is and appreciated what I already have. Goodbye my angel.....